I've realized, I have finally realized  many things, 

I have finally realized why gold isn't shiny enough. 

I have finally realized why the birds don't sing to me, 

or why the clouds seem to follow my heart. 

I have finally realized why i see myself as "incapable", 

or why i think too much.

I have finally realized why the world is so cold, 

and why i always cry at night.

I've realized, that i have came to the absolute realization that my despair,

in fact was not because of the world but because of me.

That's what I've Realized.